la tristesse durera toujors

absinthe

henry voland — Thu, 07 Jan 2010 17:48:41 +0000

absinthe. that is all. when the world sucks, have some. when your art fades, have some. when color dries up, have some. or, just have some.

Venn Diagram

henry voland — Tue, 08 Dec 2009 02:43:49 +0000

via: http://www.clusterflock.org/2009/11/i-thirst.html

The Fundamental Risk

henry voland — Mon, 07 Dec 2009 23:14:43 +0000

Elegant, yet undiscerning, the rants of the far right have not only created a further polarized base, but they have also led to some moderates running for the freezer with them as the enchanted create mystical skepticism over scientific fact. Further, now, will climate change activists have to go to convince the chain smoker that cigarettes cause lung cancer. As of now, the climate activists are peaceful – a criteria that usually affects zero change unless thousands amass behind the banner. And yet something would have to happen to cause such a fanatical shift in passive-agreement to ferocious action. Something – far seated in the macabre – will enrage the politeness of those engrossed in the oppressive traditions of status quo to bring about a crushing snap to the delicate balance of indecisiveness. The republicans have their fundamentalists – high-heated evangelicals singing the ordained message of a proverb long since relevant. The democrats? Facts. Followed by facts supporting the facts based on scientific fact from millions of years ago. Facts, unfortunately, are not polarizing. People still smoke despite the cancer. It took MLK years of peaceful work to achieve a movement towards equal rights – yet it took a fundamentalist to seal his dream. Is there going to be a dramatic event from the left – or even the right – to be an instrument, a bullet-point on a list of reasons why and how things should change? Will it take 20 more movies and 12 more conventions before we figure out even some of the logistics peacefully? Or are people waiting for the macabre, the pre-ordained message, or even the beginning of the end to whole-heartily repent?

I’m sure of one thing: the right hand of God holds the left hand of the Devil as we go round and round.

A Deo

henry voland — Thu, 12 Nov 2009 01:10:06 +0000

Gratias tibi ago, domine. Haec credam a deo pio? A deo iusto, a deo scito? Cruciatus in crucem. Tuus in terra servus, nuntius fui. Officium perfeci. Cruciatus in crucem. Eas in crucem!

Graduation

henry voland — Tue, 27 Oct 2009 08:32:01 +0000

We develop with specific goals in mind and milestones to pass to celebrate their completion. Thats where post-graduate-life hits a stall. Our preparation has led us to a specific achievement of obtaining a fair enough comprehension within a subject matter and then we are thrown into the gambit with our ideals and goals set forth from those years of training. After that, there is no graduation and no real means of recognized achievement any longer – a reason, perhaps, so many continue to float. The structured lifestyle via education has suddenly become an even more controlled environment charged by capitalism. And within this there are no certain goals any longer, only promises of potential with marginal returns of success. Does this mean we victimize capitalism for its coercion? Or do we victimize the formats of childhood education? I’m not against suggesting that the fundamentals of both are elaborately flawed. The corrosive nature of education upon creativity and the dictatorial nature of capitalism upon educational expansion meet hand in hand with a lesson in oppression. It is here, post-collegiate, pre-parenthood that we learn the hardest lesson in a mid-level job: someone lied to us long ago.

Forgotten

henry voland — Wed, 19 Aug 2009 16:45:15 +0000

I have not forgotten my place, I have been exploring various media to further elaborate on the casualties of morality upon us all. I certainly have not developed a solution – I never will completely, but I believe that I can get close to realizing why each day is driven by values we merely accept as the masters over expression. Everyone looks for that breaking point daily – you watch a car chase, bloody movies, porn – fantasy upon fantasy because morality has left you dull, inhibited and you need a release of your instincts. And even if I do find my answer, it won’t be your answer. A constitution for the people, by the people but against mundane registrations of doctrine. The subconscious would no longer have to dream, but live!

Redundant Tasks

henry voland — Wed, 22 Jul 2009 23:59:32 +0000

I watch the same people perform the same daily tasks as I perform my same tasks, daily. Tomorrow is not another day. It is the same day. The old man in his old yellow Mercedes will arrive tomorrow by pulling into his parking spot too quickly and be out of alignment with the striping. The young man who limps in gym clothes will come in his new Mercedes – sometimes with crutches, sometimes just limping – but always limping, for years.. The woman with a car painted as if it had vines across it will come. Her illusions are poorly executed, or she would not be here, daily. The man that downgraded from a Porsche to an Accord will walk briskly to be sure no one sees his downgrade. The owner downstairs will put things in his dated Mercedes. The old green jeep will rumble in. I will sit here, completing and re-completing the same tasks, marking my time by others marking theirs.

Today

henry voland — Mon, 20 Jul 2009 16:28:18 +0000

Today I’m going to try something, even if it fails. I’ve been failing at nothing for too long.

Art

henry voland — Thu, 16 Jul 2009 20:59:41 +0000

This is an overwhelming subject to which I have probably 247 pages worth of opinion, fact, and thesis on – to which I’m going to boil it down to one statement:

Art is not regulated to currency, production, or formatting – if you subject it to any of these demons, you have created a product. The value of art is indeterminate. Indeterminate. In – de – fucking – terminate.

iNationalism

henry voland — Thu, 09 Jul 2009 18:00:01 +0000

I fear to tread on nationalism. I’ve previously stated that we have been victims to national historical lessons which are predicated on religious ideologies, cultural claims and any kind of ‘value’ that we claim to hold as unifed communities. I hate ‘value’ as a term, but I have to use it to make a point since its ambiguity is inexplicably polarizing to a concept. In any case, nationalism. I started a year ago with this as a reasoning to drive the strength of communities to develop, create and thrive. I cast it aside quickly as I realized the dangers of, again, historical doctrines as well as anti-aliasing between cultures. I’m not back-tracking to say “lets start here now”. I’ve still moved beyond this, but I think there is a potential here. Pride is tricky, but no less than Hope in that when it falls, it falls hard into Despair. But restart that Pride and people have drive. We may all need a new pride currently, as the United States continues to flucuate from its dominance. But I tread lightly on saying that We the People need to restart American Pride to make the United States great again. Instead, I the Person should focus on that strength that develops, creates and thrives. When I have created, and someone else has created, the United we are stronger. If I ask others to make me better, I make them weaker because I have not created. iNationalism. First, foremost and under my determination. What should I do then to make myself better? How can I if Nationalism deters the evolution of iNationalism? (refer to History post)

How awful is our day-in-age that I need to write this as iNationalism in order to relate to the modern man? Maybe I start there.